thoughts and words from the heart

People can be misunderstood on so many levels.




Next time you think you have someone figured out...or you find yourself making some sort of judgement..think twice.  That person is just like you. Same feelings, at one time or another, the same thoughts. That person has the same insecurities, annoyances, and loves.  



Thoughts and words from my heart spill out of  my head, out of my mouth, like spitting water when I swim.  Inspirations flash in my head.  And they're just feelings.  Just?

If I could live more than one life, maybe I'd learn to be a better person. Maybe I would be wise like God.  Maybe I would love like God.  I know I'd try.  I'm trying now, but it seems like I'm spinning my wheels.



It's time to sleep and maybe have a good dream tonight.







 But it's time to sleep.  Tomorrow I'll wake and start all over again.  I'm not sure how I'll still try, but I will, I'll still try to love you well.





 And when I wake, thoughts and words from the heart will once again be reigned in and controlled. Taken care of so as not to cause questions, and God knows, no misunderstandings.


Loves from the past; friends smile in my mind.  They come and go. Some stay. Some cut like crazy, some make me happy and love me more than I love them.  That's a good kind. It's light and makes me know I'm okay; when he loves me more than I love him. My grandmother always told me to find someone who loves me a little more than I love him. She was so damn right.



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"Two Step"

Hey, my love, I came to you with
best intentions
You laid down and gave to me just
what I'm seeking
Love , you drive me to distraction

Hey my love do you believe that we
might last a thousand years
Or more if not for this,
our flesh and blood
It ties you and me right up
Tie me down

Celebrate we will
Because life is short but sweet for 
certain
We're climbing two by two
To be sure these days continue
These things we cannot change

Hey , my love, you came to me like
wine comes to this mouth
Grown tired of water all the time 
You quench my heart and you 
quench my mind

Happy Birthday Ian!

Thirty five years ago I finally had what I always wanted, a boy.  A beautiful baby boy, with long black hair, thick eyelashes,  beautiful intense eyes, and a will of iron.



That boy, who is now a man, has brought so much joy into my life words can't begin to say.  But a mother's heart is connected with her children's hearts.  What he felt I felt.  I knew my boy.

He was quiet but he was an observer. He watched everything; considered everything, thought about it all. I could see the cogs in his little brain turning over and over.






He would sit on the porch swing with me at night, quietly as we watched the cars go by.  As he grew, he would build cities in his room, or be the little student for his teacher sister.

My boy was strong willed to say the least. And his heart was gold.  His will was strong, stronger than mine, I just had to try and lead him in the right direction. so that his love of life didn't grow dark.



All these years later he is a man, a good man, with a wife, and perhaps someday, a son or a daughter.  I'm proud of what he has become.





He has gone to school, lived on his own, sewn his oats, traveled the world and participated in much life has to offer more than some people ever will.   I am grateful.




I do hope this new year of his life will bring more life discoveries that will continue to form his strong, loving, gentle but strong character.  But I also hope he continues to keep that young spirit he has always fostered.  I love you Ian! Happy birthday!

May the good Lord be with you
Down every road you roam
And may sunshine and happiness
surround you when you're far from home
And may you grow to be proud
Dignified and true
And do unto others
As you'd have done to you
Be courageous and be brave
And in my heart you'll always stay
Forever Young, Forever Young
Forever Young, Forever Young

May good fortune be with you
May your guiding light be strong
Build a stairway to heaven
with a prince or a vagabond

And may you never love in vain
and in my heart you will remain
Forever Young, Forever Young
Forever Young, Forever Young
Forever Young
Forever Young

And when you finally fly away
I'll be hoping that I served you well
For all the wisdom of a lifetime
No one can ever tell

But whatever road you choose
I'm right behind you, win or lose
Forever Young, Forever Young
Forever Young ,Forever Young
Forever Young, Forever Young
For, Forever Young, Forever Young